Update 2d March

This is it, I was going to keep escorting for another month till April, but I am packing up, I have had enough.

I have had enough to be close to people, feel the kindness, reach a beautiful closeness which emphasizes in such connection with the healing, with presences of the purest realms; when then, this has to be broken and bothered by intimate touch, leading to unwanted and inapropriate, sexual contact.

Yes, it is wrong, I have had enough, I do not want this sexual contact that spoils it all, that takes away the beautiful space which had created itself and makes the experience join the ones of the fakes. I do not want to be an illusion for men, an illusion of love or human intimacy; I am there for their healing, for caring and for sharing so they can find themselves closer; but not for fulfilling their animal instincts of seduction, nor mine.

I have had enough, don't even ask me for a kiss on the mouth; it is not your place, nor it is mine. I am here to help and create beautiful things; not to prostitute myself, or sell myself as a "free and easy" woman. However much I wanted a sexual connection to happen before, however much I tried to see if escorting and promiscuity was the true me, I realise now it is not my place and not where I want to be. I do not believe in physical sharing for a few hours. It is wrong for me, and it is false. If I want to care for myself and I do, and love myself then I have to say no.

It is...Such a relief to get out of a lie.

Joyful Spirit.